January 2011
Do yourself a favor and pack your bags, buy a...
Redirection
I’m thinking about changing what I want to do with my life. I’m not sure if I’m entirely cut out to be a photographer, and studying it commercially in school full time is starting to make it be more of a chore than something fun for me. I really don’t want to end up hating it. I’m really considering just getting my associates and then taking general studies somewhere...
I have never felt so intensely trapped and stupid...
I’m almost going into a sort of panic mode. I’m looking at schools to transfer to again but it’s not as possible anymore. At least I know for sure that here is wrong, so if I even get the opportunity again I will force myself to get on that plane and fucking leave without even a slight glance back. And I’m being repetitive but I just can’t believe how much I screwed...
today, the regret's hitting me harder than ever.
It actually woke me from my sleep this morning. I am now forced to completely admit to myself that I made the wrong decision, the exact same one I made before. I completely contradicted myself. I feel incredibly stupid. I should be 2,000 miles away from here right now, with a fresh start in a bigger city with more to offer. It scares me that I may in fact be stuck here now. I don’t know why...
I am craving to be on a beach in 75 degree weather with pouring rain like nothing else.
I want to start over.
I feel like I cheated myself out of good experiences through my anger, selfishness, pride, paranoia, and negativity.
I don’t want to search around for something or someone to blame for my unhappiness anymore.
I want to be a better person. I want to make some sort of difference. I can feel my youth already slipping through my fingers.
The only problem is, where do I even start?
Listen
breakingtheblue asked: Your really inspiring.
Reblog if you want an Anon's honest opinion of you...
dafuqkittykat:
sunlightsunshinee:
I dare you.
bring it
